hey people..
been long time i've not update my blog..
i dont know if u guys do read this blog..

i don't know if i can last long enough to feel for Syawal..
went to hospital today..
Dr. Yup have the worse news that i've never want to hear..
Its spreading..
to my tummy n leg..
that's the reason of me keep vomitting and nose bleed n numbness at my leg..
all this while i tot its just the med(s) side effect..
how long more do i can stand n walk??..
do i have to sit at d wheelchair one day??..
how long more do i can open my eyes n see the world??..

i can't tell these to mum..
sis have to keep these with me..
when the time comes,
mum,
i promise i'll let u know everything..

there's too many things i kept from mum..
i wish i have time to tell everything to you,mum..
mum,if i go before u,i want u to know..
you're the best mum ever..
no one can take ur place in my heart..
i know that i always answer u back to u,mum..
but i didnt mean to..
and if i lied i didnt mean to..
mum..
u're my life..
i'm sori if one day u have to take care of me like a small kid..
clean me up, feed me and stay awke for me..

to my fwens..
some might know what i mean..
some might just go for ur wild guess..
what eva u guys think of,
just remember..
everyone of u have a place in my heart..
and no one can replace every each one of u in my heart..

to Erni..
Love..u have been the most loving person that i've eva know..
im sori..
i know all the nasty word been used to you..
you guide me all the way here..
you change my mind set..
u make the path for me to change..
i'm going of soon enough before we can really fulfil our dream..
eating durian..
s'pore flyer at nite..
and even solat jema'a..
Love..
u change my world lots more..
u and ur family..
a big thank u..
and Love..
I Love You

Fatin..
Syg..i told u i cant wait any longer..
i'm sori syg..
it's all abt this syg..
it's not because i cant wait for ur sms ur chat..
u change my path to syg..
for 7 years i never miss a day saying how much i love u..
u mean a whole world to me once..
syg..be happy woth ur life syg..
and syg..
I Love You

Miss Nur Janna
Dear..i cant stop saying how much i miss u..
how much i really do miss u i don even know..
we almost get along together..
u went to U n i've been left behind alone..
i understand that u're busy..
but dear..
until now,not even a single day i forget abt u..
the places we go..
and how mush close we get..
even people scared to go against u..
coz u're near to me..
and Dear..
I Miss You Lots More Than You Know

iLa..
iLa..ciL mohon maaf..
banyak salah ciL pat iLa..
iLa..
ciL tak pernah ucap syg pat iLa..
tapi ciL syg iLa..
kalo di izinkan,
ciL nak ucapkan syg pat iLa..
sebenarnya ciL ngn Erni takde pape..
dia dah ada yg punya..
kita cuma rapat jek iLa..
ckp ngan aLong ngn yg lain yg ciL kirim salam..
mungkin ciL akan ikot Kid..
iLa..
biLa iLa balik jumpa ciL tau..
ciL rindu sangat dgn iLa..
iLa..
akan aku ucapkan Sayang bila tiba masanya..

these people change my life..
may Allah make them happy in life..


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