i really hope u read this post..

how i really wish my mind n my heart could talk to you..
tell you how i feel when u hurt me..
tell you what i actually want..
tell you who actually i am..
so you can easily understand me and will never hurt me anymore..

i just want to smile and be happy like how others and you are now..
but why is it just so hard for me to feel that happiness that i've long searching for??!!
what's my mistake??..
why am i been treat like this??!!
why can't you just simply understand me??..
WHY WHY WHY!!!!

all i need now is your love..
you to understand me..

you want me to trust you..
and times i've said i'll try..
but you keep saying that i'm not..

LET ME TELL ALL OF YOU THIS,
I'LL NEVER AND NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE.
can you see tt fullstop??..
my trust for people stops there....

i had enough of being sick everytime..
you know that i'm sick yet you still do all this to me..

FINE!!
YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN KEEPING FROM YOU??!!
LET ME TELL YOU THIS....
MY TIME IS NOT LONG.
that is what i've been keeping from you..

and i'll never know when the last time i could ever feel your love..

and again i'll say it here..
what i want is just your love and you to understand me..
i'll never ask for anything else....

how i lead my life now is not like how i use to live it....
i've to plan my day every single day....
just to make sure i spend this time of mine to the fullest..

life is short..
in did it is short..
i'm only 20 now....
i'm praying hard thats not the dot of my life journey..
praying hard mericals will happen....

everynight only tears roll down my cheeck....

that's all for now..

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