i really hope u read this post..
how i really wish my mind n my heart could talk to you..
tell you how i feel when u hurt me..
tell you what i actually want..
tell you who actually i am..
so you can easily understand me and will never hurt me anymore..
i just want to smile and be happy like how others and you are now..
but why is it just so hard for me to feel that happiness that i've long searching for??!!
what's my mistake??..
why am i been treat like this??!!
why can't you just simply understand me??..
WHY WHY WHY!!!!
all i need now is your love..
you to understand me..
you want me to trust you..
and times i've said i'll try..
but you keep saying that i'm not..
LET ME TELL ALL OF YOU THIS,
I'LL NEVER AND NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE.
can you see tt fullstop??..
my trust for people stops there....
i had enough of being sick everytime..
you know that i'm sick yet you still do all this to me..
FINE!!
YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN KEEPING FROM YOU??!!
LET ME TELL YOU THIS....
MY TIME IS NOT LONG.
that is what i've been keeping from you..
and i'll never know when the last time i could ever feel your love..
and again i'll say it here..
what i want is just your love and you to understand me..
i'll never ask for anything else....
how i lead my life now is not like how i use to live it....
i've to plan my day every single day....
just to make sure i spend this time of mine to the fullest..
life is short..
in did it is short..
i'm only 20 now....
i'm praying hard thats not the dot of my life journey..
praying hard mericals will happen....
everynight only tears roll down my cheeck....
that's all for now..
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AnaK KeciL
hi people..
i know that i've not update for a long time..
more to songs..
coz these songs tell the stories..
and how i feel..
i don't know what's happening to me..
my health condition..
from good to bad..
and now bad to worse..
medication after medication..
get sick and tired of eating them..
as if i depent on the medication to stay alive..
not all knows what's my condition..
what i can say now is that;
"i feel that i'm using someone else's body"
HATE this feeling..
i can't do much work with this pain..
what i can do i just pretend..
pretend nothing happen..
and just put on my smiles like always..
what making me smile now??
or who making me smile now??
the girls that i used to contact before and family..
and now they are back in my life..
i'm not using them..
it's just that i LOST their contact when i reset my HP..
and i don't online to chat coz of attachments..
i made some new fwenz..
someone who use to be a passer by....
but now is my fwen..
ahaha....
i'm standing high now..
like 6months before..
so people..
that is it..
life is short..
do as much as u can..
and i've learn..
I NEVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE!!
NEVER ASK ME TO!!
coz i won't..
AnaK KeciL
2 songs to indicate how my life is now..
1st song is how i feel, 2nd song is how i lead my life now..
1st:
Babyface - The Loneliness