AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wanna shout my lungs out!!!!
can i??!!??!!??!!
why can't even a single one of u understand what i'm going through now??!!
u guys think i want to lead my life this way??!!
can u people use ur own big brain and think now i feel when u guys said that i do all this on purpose??!!
looks like none,
none of u people,
people that is important to my life,
understand who actually i am!!
PERGI MAMPOS AH!!!!
INGAT AKU SUKA-SUKA PE??!!
PIKI AKU MAIN-MAIN PE??!!
MEMANG AKU DA JANJI DENGAN RAMAI ORANG!!
SO??
BIG DEAL??!!
INGAT SIKIT AH!!
AKU PON ADA PERASAAN AH!!
AKU TAU APA AKU BUAT!!
when i say i'll change to me back,
the common words that i got is
"suit urslf..it's ur life.."
what the hell..
if u know it's my life,
then why the hack u care to talk about this to me at the first place??!!
when i ask u to F.U.C.K O.F.F,
say i'm too hush,
say i'm bad,
say i think of myself..
please ah....
i've my problemS to think of..
any smoking,out at night,go to pub,being the old me,
being CHILL not CIL,
makes me feel good..
YES!!
MAKE ME FEEL GOOD!!
and i never say i'm proud of it..
i makes me think with my bloody brain rather than using my emotion to think..
HATE ME??!!
by all means ah....
i just need time....
that is all i'm asking for..
give me time till end of raya..
i'll change..
change to the me that u guys love..
please..
i'm begging all..
let me fly free for now..


Fatin sudah mempunyai insan yang amat disayangi kini..
aku sudah tidak dipedulikan lagi..
mungkin benar firasat hati..
Jam tangan hijau yang sudah tidak berfungsi,
bermakna semua sudah berakhir..
kini aku mula menyayangi insan yang lain..
walau baru berkenalan,
hati sudah berpaut..
kata dan gerak gerinya,
aduhhhh....
manja ya amat....
dia tidak mengetahui ini semua..
akankah aku diberi peluang untuk menyayanginya seperti aku menyayangi Fatin??..
atau kekecewaan yang akan menanti diriku??..


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