this shows that i'm not a good blogger can??..
ahaha..
this is my only 100th post after almost a year having this blog..
muahahahahaaa..
yesterday..
injured my ankle while playing soccer..
ah shit!!
hate it..
next week attachment with this swollen leg..
then my sweetie pie help me by placing ice pack..
love those moment..
when both eyes got caught,
something happen....
something that make me totally confuse now....
aaahhh..
should i just drag myself back??..
FUCK AH!!
hate this feeling!!
then back home bring mum and family except dad
to see fireworks..
got free 6 tickets..
dad can't follow cause he's working..
had fun seeing mum smile
and she keep saying she love it..
alhamdulillah..
1st time i saw those happy face since awhile..
i love mum..
no word can specifically state how much i love her..
sayang..i'm sorry..i can't tell u at what state i am now..i wish u could understand..i'm confuse myself..for whatever had happen and what going to happen, i'm trying to be myself..when the time comes, i will make decision and i will tell u where i'm standing..i just hope that i can take those words, i said to u, back..cause i can never be w/o u..
and now,
three people keep playing around my mine..
i can't think clear now..
go straight,
or take steps back??..
haizzzzz..
ciaozzzz..
AnaK KeciL
i don't know why..
why i kept thinking about my past..
seriously being there is the nicest thing ever..
feel love..
no hurts..
aaaahhhh..
nice feeling..
now that i have 2 people that love me..
and i would like to love them the same too..
but it's impossible..
serious talking..
if i do,
i will take steps back to my past..
and i have to let my Sayang off..
let her go..
no..never i will want that to happen..
but if my love start to build for them is more from my love to her,
then i promise,
i'll let her go..
anyway she found someone new..
will walk off out of her life soon..
not walk off la..run off....
wish her all the best..
may both stay happy together..
stop talking about her..
now talk about these two people
that show their love to me w/o me asking..
one of them i get to know during new year..
second just 4 months ago coming 5 in 2days time..
seriously they are sooo sweet..
sweeter than sugar,
sweeter than honey..
ok..now i wanna talk about just someone..
in MALAY!!
orite..
ini budak sama lecture hall ngn saya..
dia ni bukan dua2 budak yang saya bobalkan pat atas..
dia manis ah budak nye..
baik hati..
slalu buat saya senyum..
manja dia pon bole tahan terok..
adoi....
cair dok saya..
tapi saya baru rapat dengan dia..
jadi biar la kawan-kawan jek dulu..
mana tau..
jadi kawan rapat lepas tu..
adooiii..
jadi sekarang bukan dua insan tapi tiga..
jadi mana nak pilih??..
semua saya buat kawan jek..
ciaozzzz....
AnaK KeciL
hahaha..
later on will be my adult nursing..
it's a paper that is the combination of bio + pathology + pharmaco + nursing skill..
whatever it is,
i don't have confidence for this paper..
i would like to share something..
there's this someone..
well i should say one is a nice person..
and one is the reason of every of my smile..
no one knows about this person expect for a friend..
even we are yet to be close,
i just feel good even with just sms-ing..
seriously..
no kidding..
well..
it's normal to have the 1st thought of someone at 1st w/o knowing them..
so iguess two of us get the wrong intention about each other..
well..
we went out..
hmmmm..
both blurr..
no sense of direction..
i'm not the kind of person who always go out ok..
but i do go to ECP, WCP, Sembawang Park..
the same goes with that someone..
1st outing to Singapore Flyer..
we took at 1400hr flight..
how nice is that!!!!
no no no no..
super not nice..
nothing to see..
lucky enough we got each other to see..
we talk..
about school, family, and ourselves..
both don't like to take photos,
so there's no photo..
peace ah..
people who know me,
sure know how hard to take even a single snap with me..
*there's still no pic taken with my sayang*
well..
out with this someone but my mind is somewhere else..
my mind still keep thinking of my baby n my sayang..
how i wish they are the one beside me..
but if can i want my sayang..
but too bad..
it's this someone..
fear of height and i know nuts..
if only i knew i will never ask one to ride with me..
ouh ya..
we talk about cars..
every single car that i like,
one like it too..
Mazda 3 and Mazda 6..
BMW..
Honda..
ahahaaaa..
every single car pass by we will talk about it..
then we talk about licenses..
I JUST WISH I GOT MY BIKE LICENSE ON THAT DAY!!
too bad......
we had a fun day being blur together..
send one off for class then head to uncle house then ECP alone..
and all this happen on the 16th August 2008..
thanks for reading..
take care..
ciaozzz..
*got to go back to study*
*Ayang, even there's others to make me smile, you're still the reason for my happiness*
AnaK KeciL
what should i do now??..
i miss you too much, Ayang..
wish time could stop for us Ayang..
i love you..
AnaK KeciL
Ayang,
Orang RinduKan Dia
AnaK KeciL
alhamdulilah....
things goes well today..
happy things is that i make myself proud..
i'm free from saturday training..
can go out la sey!!
and i met new people..
sad things is that NDP is over..
no more laughter on saturday like always..
no more seeing the smiley faces of the cadets..
no more polish boots competition..
WELL, EVERY BEGINNING IS THE STARTING OF AN END..
i guess now it has come to the end..
but its starts of a new friendship..
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!
THIS IS WHERE I BELONG!!
AND THIS IS MY ONE AN ONLY HOME!!
CHEERS FOR MY SINGAPORE!!
AnaK KeciL
my life..
like a puzzle..
thousands and hundreds of pieces..
once in my life i felt there's no need for me to put the puzzle properly,
if they fit side by side,
it's good enough..
den slowly i felt i can't get the picture that i want..
it's all over..
and some of the pieces is gone missing with or without me knowing..
i undo all..
yes all..
decide where to start 1st..
side to middle, top to down, inner to outer..
which is appropriate..
slowly came this young sweet lady..
held her hand infront of me wanting to help..
we join one piece at a time, slowly....
but slowly she's gone..
i try to put it side by side,
nicely and try to make it a correct picture..
but there's someone that came in in sudden and kick it away..
all, every pieces break apart from each other..
yes..
i break down..
i almost give up..
and again decide how to start the puzzle..
can't remember how she help me to start..
she busy with her own life now..
i don't know what should i do..
too many missing pieces..
i can only put the piece that i've seen them together before..
as for the rest,
they remain unattached and stay at their own position..
i don't dare to touch nor shift them..
because i don't want to have more missing pieces..
what i hope now is that she's back beside me guide me with th puzzle..
AnaK KeciL
at 8pm on 05/08/2008 that is 2mr,
it's my 2nd chance..
i'm hoping for the best..
praying hard things going to be the way i want it to be..
i can never ask for more..
this is the only thing that i want..
"Mummy..you've done so much for me..what i want to do is now to make you proud of me.."
AnaK KeciL
AAAHHH!!
Kenek lagi aku ngan kau!!
stay awake just to chat with u and HACK!!
i just got a BYE!!
AAAHHH!!
almost giving up to this relationship ah!!
or what u call it friendship....
F U C K U P L A S E Y ! !
AnaK KeciL