i just can't find the reason why i love you so much..
even hurts that i've always gain from you..
i don't know how special you're to me..
i just can't stop thinking of you..
what more stop loving you..
eventhough i know you only find me when you need help,
i just don't care..
i still love you..
talk about the one that you love,
hurt me too..
but i just don't care..
as long as smiles created on ur face,
i'm happy too even it hurts..
there's distance between us now..
i want it to remain like this..
so i will have the chance to slowly walk off from your life totally..
you can always say we are friends..
yes we are..
but when you have the right person to take care of you,
you don't need me anymore..
i just want you to be happy....
and you are happy with the one you love,
i shell walk off..
because you're happy enough without me..
you've always said that you try to understand me but you never can..
it's because you never tried at the first....
if u understand every single word i said to you,
you will understand my deepest feeling towards you..
i've been always saying
"org sayang dia"
"org rindu dia"
"love u Sayang"
"miss u to the max Sayang"
and i dare myself to say them in words when we're on phone..
you never want to understand them..
and there's no reply to those words....
evrytime we decide to meet up..
i can't be too happy..
because i know there's something bad gonna happen..
either before or after the meet up..
so i guess HE have HIS reason why HE stop us from meeting most of the time we plan to..
even it hurts,
i can only pray n hope for the next palnning..
too much hope and most of it turn to hurts..
i'll just let it be and just see how our relationship going to be..
i can't do much now..
both have shown our EGO part..
so i guess i'll just let flow leads the way......
"I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you"


AnaK KeciL