hi everyone!!
*leading my life w/o any aim now..

wish to live my like like before..
stay happy w/o any hurts or pain..
but can i ever achive it??
do get me wrong..

living like before doesn't mean i'm
going back to my past
and be what i am in the past..
there's things that i like about my
past there's things that i wish i did
not ever happen in my life..

and for now,
i want the happiness that i
ever had in my past..
wish it is hard to gain for now..
i've to try hard..
very very hard for me to
have that happinest back..
but how do i get it??..

i do have someone that
always and never fail
creating smiles on me..
but loving that person is
the last thing i wanna do
in my life for now..
its the thing that dragging me
back to where i am in the past..
i mean the past that i
wish it never hpn..

but the happiness that one
bring to me is the best thing
ever for now..
with her,
i can forget someone that i
deeply love and now i've to let go..
one heal the pain in me..
leading me to a happier life now..
what should i do now??..

finding new friends now..
ready to get hurt again..
i'm reaady for everything now..
but i'm not ready if one leave me..
i don't know how to lead my life
w/o one by me now...

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!
i need an answer..

to you: i'm starting to love you..but i will never continue this feeling..


AnaK KeciL