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About Me



I'm AnaK KeciL
I'm 19

black_red65@hotmail.com

This is about AnaK KeciL's Life..

AnaK KeciL's Life full of unanswered Questions..

AnaK KeciL still waitinG for the Questions to be Answered..

Poems N Puisi will be posted to let all AnaK KeciL's Feeling(s) out..

I LOVE YOU, SAYANG..


My Links:-

-My Friendster-

-HKSS-
Aishah. Isfarina. Kenny.
Mei Ying. Muhaimin. Mustainah.
Sabahrina. Suhaimi. Shaheda.
Taufiq. Wendy. Yasrina.
Yongquan. Zulhilmi. Zyma.

-NCDCC-
Fudin. Huda. Natasha.
Shakila. Sharina. Shuhailah.
Umairah. Ummairah.

-NYP-
Amanda. Fatin. Fathul Hakim.
Jasline.


Memories:-

  • September 2007
  • October 2007
  • November 2007
  • December 2007
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • June 2008
  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • September 2009


  • Credits:-

    AnaK KeciL.

    Saturday, March 29, 2008

    hi all..
    *sad..moody..hope..

    i just hope that u will understand me better..
    i'm sad because we quarrel alot..
    moody because u never want to understand my moves..

    aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    saw someone..
    someone that use to be a very important person in my life..
    aaaahhhh..
    again!!!!
    MY PAST!!!!
    what is wrong with me??!!
    seriously....
    this few months things just get super complicated..
    the more i want to forget,
    the more memory came back..
    just can't get my mind to stop thinking about all this shits..
    i hate my past!!
    i really hate every single bad thing that i've done in my past!!
    every single move!!
    if only i never start that stupid 1 move,
    where am i now??
    who am i now??
    what am i now??
    how am i now??
    funny huh??!!
    aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

    *Sayang..i miss u..n i love u..love u soooo much....shop with me??



    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 1:36:00 AM

    Wednesday, March 26, 2008

    Dengan ikhlas aku katakan,
    aku rindu....
    aku sayang....

    Aku tahu aku katakan rindu,
    aku katakan sayang pada semua....

    Tetapi yang pasti,
    dirimu yang selalu dalam ingatan..

    Aku terlalu sayang akan dirimu......



    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 10:05:00 PM

    Monday, March 24, 2008

    satu yang pasti..
    aku merindui dirimu Sayang..
    hanya itu yang aku ingin kau tahu..
    aku tersepit dengan kesibukkan aku sendiri..
    tiada masa untuk diriku dan juga dirimu..
    apa pun terjadi,
    aku ingin kau tahu aku menyayangi dirirmu..
    teramat menyayangi dirimu..
    biar kau jemu dengan kata-kata sayangku..
    yang pasti kau tahu aku sayangkan dirimu..
    kata-kata sayang dan rindu ikhlas dari hatiku..

    *hope 2mr when u're out wf ur darling u eat ur fishball noodle..i'm sorry that i can't bring u out and eat..


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 10:47:00 PM

    Sunday, March 23, 2008

    SERIOUSLY!!
    WHY NOT YOU JUST FUCK OFF!!
    STOP MSGING ME!!
    STOP CALLING ME!!
    AND STOP SAYING THAT YOU MISS ME!!
    IF YOU REALLY UNDERSTAND ME,
    YOU WILL STOP ALL THESE SHITS
    AND COMFORT ME!!
    NOT MAKING ME PISSED OFF!!
    FAHAM TAK NUR FADILAH!!


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 10:43:00 PM

    Friday, March 21, 2008

    Satu Yang Pasti..

    Aku Menyayangimu..

    Terlalu menyayangimu..

    Dan kini aku lemas dalam lautan rindu..

    Alangkah indahnya jika kau disisi kini..

    Dalam pelukanku..

    AAAAHHHH..

    Aku tersepit dalam kesibukkanku sendiri..

    Yang pasti kita akan bertemu selepas 4 April ini..


    ORANG SAYANG DIA

    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 1:09:00 PM

    Monday, March 17, 2008

    sorry for the malay post..

    bila terbit matahari mula pudar,
    aku hanya mampu terkenangkan..
    hari-hari bersamamu amat aku hargai..
    senyuman yang terukir tak ingin aku lenyapkan..

    dalam mimpku,
    aku dapat merasa kasih sayangmu,
    aaaahhhh....
    hangatnya kehadiranmu......
    hingga aku terus terbuai dalam tidurku..

    tetapi itu semua dalam mimpi..
    bila realiti muncul,
    aku terpaku diam....
    takut kehilanganmu bila kau ketahui isi hatiku..

    pejamkan matamu..
    rasakan kasih sayangku..
    fahamilah diriku ini..
    agar kau mengerti isi hatiku..

    izinkan aku menyayangi dirimu dalam diam..
    izinkan aku ubati rinduku padamu..
    izinkan aku memilikimu walau hanya dalam mimpi..
    izinkan aku luahkan rasa sayangku padamu..

    bila kita bertemu,
    aku ingin kau dalam dakapanku..
    aku ingin pegang erat tanganmu..
    aku ingin kau merasa kasih sayangku..

    aku selalu ungkapkan sayang..
    aku ucapkan rindu..
    itu kata ikhlas dariku..
    khas untuk dirimu..

    kini aku lemas dalam kerinduan..
    kesibukanku memisahkan kita..
    alangkah indah jika kau disiku..
    melihat dirimu sudah mencukupi saat ini..




    there's too much love for u in me..
    i know that should not be the way..
    but let me keep this feeling..
    be by ur side and loving u in silence..
    when we meet up,
    there's things that i want to let u know..
    i know there's words that i said hurt u,
    u don't show it but ur words do..

    ORANG SAYANG DIA

    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 8:37:00 PM

    Saturday, March 15, 2008

    Hi..

    *Lets talk about life again..


    Hmmm..

    Looks life my post(s) really confuse people..

    Sorry la horr..

    If you understand my complicated life,

    You will understand every post that i've posted..

    And if u don't,

    I'm sorry..

    To make you understand my complicated life,

    I've to tell everything about my past..

    Which is hard for you to understand..

    But if you really want to know about me,

    You have to get ready to make decision

    To consider me as my past or what i am now..

    Never mind that..


    Life Life Life Life Life

    What you think about Life??

    Mine = Complicated

    I myself don't even know what actually i want,

    How the hell i got trap to this kind of situation??

    Why am i behaving this way??

    When will people really believe that i've change??

    Should i continue to love my Sayang as someone really special????

    Or what so ever question that i can't get any answer....

    Can someone enter my life and make everything normal??


    Some did share about the thoughts and feelings about

    Life when i ask them to define life their own way..

    * For me Life never has a fix definition *

    Agree??

    Define Life your own way and share it with me..

    I define Life as Complicated..

    * People define things from their own perspective and experience *

    Agree??

    And i define Life as Complicated

    Because my Life is complicated..


    Alright..

    Too much Complication,

    Make me my Life more twisted..

    Muahahaha..

    Thanks for reading all..

    Ciaozzz..



    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 11:44:00 PM

    Thursday, March 13, 2008

    hi..
    *blank and lonely....

    leaving you..
    that is the only thing that i think on that moment..
    never think on how you going to feel..
    and how i'm going to be..

    lonely..
    that is the only feeling i have right now..
    kept thinking on how happy i am when i'm with you..
    and how you always create smiles on me..

    how i wish i never get to know you..
    so i will never hurt you..
    and how i wish things never happen between us..
    so i will never have the thought to love you..

    i miss the way you touch my lips..
    i miss the way you called me..
    i miss the way you hold me..
    i miss you....

    yes....
    i miss you....
    i miss you so much....
    i just miss the time we spent....

    i've decide we go saperate way..
    that is the best for you and me..
    no point of us enjoying happy moment now,
    and move saperate way when time comes....

    when i listen and read thelyrics to the songs
    that we used to listen together,
    i can feel how much hope you put on me..
    i'm sorry to break all that..

    i know how much hurts i given to you..
    i just want you to know..
    you are special in my heart..
    it is just not right for us to be together..

    i am not in my past to have you as my love..
    and i'm not here to be hate by you..
    i just want you to know..
    you are here deep inside my heart..

    going separate way is the best for now..
    it is hard for you and me now..
    but i'm sure we will get through it..
    when times come,
    i will be gone from your heart,
    but one think for sure,
    you will still be here sitting at your place in my heart..

    i'm sorry for all the shits..
    i'm sorry for being selfish..
    i'm sorry for making this move..
    i'm sorry that i appear in your life..
    i'm sorry that things happen between us..
    i'm sorry that hope start to build..
    and i'm sorry to say that i really miss you....


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 8:17:00 PM

    Tuesday, March 11, 2008

    i'm walking off..
    there's no more you and me..
    the nights we spent together,
    let us make it as memory..

    i'm sorry that i appear in your life..
    i'm sorry to play with your heart..

    i'm sorry for what had happen between us..
    i'm sorry to make this move..

    you said once that i'm using you..
    for this once i'm agree to it..
    i'm selfish of using you to forget someone else..
    and giving you hope that we will become one..

    now that there is no more nights with you,
    i wish i could smile like i used to when i'm with you..
    now that we've gone to our own seperate way,
    i wish you could find the right one..

    how i wish i could let everything out of my mind
    and let out all my feelings,
    so you will know why i made the decision to leave..
    even i've say that i've started to love you..

    decision have been made..
    meetings have ended..
    smiling have stop..
    memorise will remains..

    i'm sorry for all the shits i gave you..
    and i want to thank you for the time spent with me..
    for all you have done to keep me smiling..
    you are someone special to me..

    and now,
    i can't imagine my life without u in sudden..


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 11:27:00 PM

    Saturday, March 8, 2008

    Aku buntu....
    Aku tidak mampu berimu jawapan sekarang..
    Jika aku memilih untuk kembali kepadamu,
    aku akan terus terluka dan kecewa..
    Tetapi jika aku terus melangkah pergi,
    aku melukakan dirimu dan aku lebih terluka kerana membuatmu terluka..
    Apa yang harus aku lakukan??..
    Apakah yang harus aku lakukan..
    Terus berdiam diri dan merinduimu??..
    Atau melayani dirimu seperti yang aku selalu lakukan??..
    Sejak detik itu,
    aku terus memikirkan tentang apa mahumu sebenarnya..
    Kau merasakan setiap langkah keunduranku..
    Dan bila aku merasa selesa dengan langkah-langkah itu,
    kau menarik diriku....
    Aku terus terduduk....
    Gamam..........
    AAAAHHHH!!!!
    BUNTU!!!!
    Mengapa dirimu menarik aku kembali??..
    Mengapa manjamu mencairkan aku??..
    Mengapa dirimu mampu melemahkan aku??..
    Mengapa dirimu terlalu bermakna bagiku??..
    Mengapa ini harus terjadi dalam hidupku??..
    MENGAPA!!!!
    AAAAHHHH!!!!
    BOSAN!!!!
    BUNTU!!!!
    JAWAPAN YANG MANA HARUS AKU BERIKAN KEPADAMU??!!
    Sesungguhnya aku terlalu lemah......
    Fikiran aku terlalu buntu......
    Aku tak mampu tangisinya......
    Tiga hari lagi....
    Aku harus membuat dua keputusan..
    Mungkin ini, perkara bodoh bagimu..
    Bukan untukku..
    Menyakiti dirimu sesuatu yang aku tak inginkan..
    Tetapi aku juga tidak mahu merasa kekecewaan....
    Dirimu terlalu, terlalu istimewa bagiku....
    AAAAHHHH!!
    Haruskah aku teruskan langkahku??
    Atau harus aku kembali kepadamu??
    AKU BUNTU!!!!
    BUNTU!! BUNTU!! BUNTU!! BUNTU!! BUNTU!!


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 12:36:00 AM

    Wednesday, March 5, 2008

    haioooo..
    *what should i do

    down with flu
    down with knee pain
    down with "toothache"
    down with diarrhoea
    that is what happen to me today....

    don't mind about that..
    now that i'm sick,
    i really can't think clear..
    feel like just shout out what's in my mind
    and what i'm feeling right now....
    i'm totally confuse....
    there's too many things that people want from me..
    and they keep asking me to make more decision..
    AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

    decision!!
    decision!!
    decision!!
    decision!!
    decision!!

    please no more!!
    for now i really can't think clear!!
    and if possible i don't want to make any
    or reverse any decision now..
    i don't want to hurt nor to be hurt..
    enough of hurt..
    can someone just take my place
    and make decision for me??..

    i'm weak now..
    and my mind can't think clear..
    within 6 days i have to make 2 decision..
    it's important to them
    and it's important to me too..
    if i make the wrong step,
    either one side will be hurt..

    what should i do??..
    what decision should i make??..
    and now,
    what should i think of now??
    i want to tears it out..
    but i just can't..

    if i choose to walk back to you..
    i'm going to be hurt..
    if i choose to walk off..
    you're going to be hurt..

    if i choose to act like we use to be,
    i'm going to give you more hope..
    if i choose to walk off..
    both of us going to be hurt..

    AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

    thanks for your time people..


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 10:31:00 PM

    Tuesday, March 4, 2008

    Hi all..
    *hope they read this..

    This post is specially for this two people.. it's up to you people to read.. some will understand and some won't.. but i really wish LiL and Sayang read their part.. and i really want to apologize to them for things that i've done and things that have occur..


    To LiL:

    Firstly i want to apologize to you.. I know things happen between us.. The time when u first hug me, i feel totally irritated and really wish u were not there and we never met before.. I asked u to fuck off from my life cause i never wish u have u in my life.. But when something major happen in my life, when the moment that i'm totally down, u always be by me.. Making sure i start my day and end it with a smile.. Day by day we get closer.. Too close until things happen.. And i really wish u will always stay.. And hope start to build in u.. i'm really sorry to make that hope starts.. i never knew this will occur.. and seriously i never use u.. never once i have that mind set of using u.. u are special in ur own way.. and i know u want to let out what u feel and share ur feelings with others.. but don't make things complicated Sweetie.. and i will never blame u from the punch i that i get from Aman.. i understand the situation.. but Sweetie, its up to u now.. if u think we can continue our friendship, i'm more than happy to be with u.. but if u think u want to go ur own way now, u may.. but as i promise, i will never let u go until u found the right one....



    To Sayang:

    Sayang.. i can't clear now.. u know things happen in my life now.. and i’m really sorry to make u feel that i’m walking off.. as u know i’m someone who will always lead my life with words that i say.. i'm someone who hold on to my words Sayang.. and i told you before u involve urself in ur relationship, that i will walk off once u have someone.. and the time have come.. i'm walking off Sayang.. u feel it and it hurts u and i hurt me even more.. its never easy Sayang.. never it will.. and now with ur words yesterday, u pulling me back.. asking me not to walk off.. do u know confuse i am that moment??.. the fact that i walk off is that not to have u involve in stupid conflict with ur darling because of me.. i may sound stupid.. but what if ur darling read the msgs that i send to u.. and u know how i msg u.. and if people never read the sender name, people will think differently about that msg.. that's an example Sayang more can happen.. i really can't change my decision now.. i can't think clear.. i will stand where i am now.. i will not walk off nor walking back.. i will give u the answer in a week time.. the day that i'm going to have a date with u.. 11 March 2008.. i'm sorry Sayang.. i Sayang u, more than u can ever imagine..



    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 5:52:00 PM

    Monday, March 3, 2008

    alo alo alo..
    *i wish not to know you

    okok..
    guess what i did yesterday....
    guess!!
    can't??!!
    aaaahhhhhhhh..
    first time in my entire life,
    i slept at 6am and woke up at 5pm..
    sleep at 6am is normal for me..
    but waking up at 5pm is a big NO NO..
    i never like sleeping....
    but now,
    with just sleeping,
    no new problem coming..

    but hey!!
    after woke up,
    i took my shower and out to Didi's place,
    and guess what i get........
    a stupid punch from a stupid person for a stupid reason!!
    AAAHHH!!
    HATE IT!!
    REALLY HATE IT!!
    and my tooth crack now..
    my right fifth tooth....
    and ouchhh!!
    in pain even now!!

    and the reason is because.........
    never mind....

    to you: i wish i never get to know you..and just because of u telling people what had happen between us,and people don't know why it happen,and people tot i'm using u and u never explain to them and i got shit out of it..thanks....and i really wish i never get to know you, cause i know i'm hurting u deep inside ur heart..stop hoping..cause it will never happen..

    enough of yesterday..
    lets come to today morning story..

    said to my friends i want to sleep like i did yesterday..
    but hey..
    i'm not a sleeping person la sey..
    seriously i'm not..
    i don't sleep at they same time like normal people do..
    but i do awake like normal people..
    got it??..
    never mind....

    mama wake me up at 9 cause sis forget to bring her book to work..
    so ask me to meet sis at J.E and give her book..
    hmmmm..
    sis took her TP in the morning today..
    its 3rd of march..
    its d 3rd time she took her TP..
    and she have to make 3 people happy..
    1. MUM
    2. DAD
    3. Her Boboy

    and guess what....
    hmmmmm....
    haizzzz....
    SHE PASSED!!!!
    ahahahaha....
    CONGRATS TO MY SIS!!
    despite of her just got her tummy on op,
    she force herself to go for practice and her TP today..

    than she call me and ask me to get out of house..
    so went to J.E..
    ok..
    the funniest part here was she forget that she's meeting me..
    so she enter the train
    and saw me
    and she get out the train
    and she took her book from me
    and she enter the train back..
    ahahaha..
    can see her smile....

    i'm deleting my hp sent msgs..
    mark
    mark
    and mark the msgs that i want to delete..
    i have to redo it like more than 6 times..
    what the hell..
    i can't mark all cause some msg i wanna save..
    i have to delete 139 msgs..
    and my tumb got cramp..
    ahah..
    don't know what happen to me that time..
    finally i got to mark all 139 msgs in the bus otw home..
    ahahaha..

    that's what happen in the morning today....
    guess i'll will just stay home today..
    my knee hurts,
    my cheeck hurts,
    and lastly my gum n tooth hurts..

    that's all for this entery..
    really got nothing better to do now..
    upload games to home comp so mama can play them..
    ahah..
    alright..
    thanks for reading..
    bubye....


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 12:58:00 PM

    Sunday, March 2, 2008

    hi all..
    *happy + tired + sick = now

    alright!!!!
    SHS club rules!!!!
    thanks to every member that make
    "SHS Student Conference" a success!!
    all our hard work not been wasted!!
    and love working with every single one of you!!
    i learn new things along the way..
    lots of new things indeed..
    and we had our nice lepak session
    and mind touching session..
    ENJOY!!

    after all that,
    headed to my own lepak place..
    finally meet up with my friends..
    had my cup of tea..
    then had a good soccer session..
    even my knee hurts like "no ending",
    have to really force myself..
    because i don't like to pamper my pain..
    after had my last soccer game,
    guess who i just notice was there since don't know when??
    ahah!!
    my LiL..
    once again hug me like nobody bussiness..
    how many time do i have to tell u not to do that when i just ended my game??..
    and when i'm pissed off, u said that i never want to understand u..
    i don't want to talk to u for now..

    willl just talk once we meet up later..
    ORG TAK NAK GADO NGAN DIA....

    after that head home....
    aaaahhhhhhh....
    home sweet home..
    miss home..
    ahah..
    want to have a good night rest but i'm too restless..
    how??
    blogging lorr....
    really happy what happen yesterday..
    1st March 2008....
    superb day....
    all thanks to SHS club members..
    and thanks to areb,
    my new nick name is MUTU!!
    ahah..

    alright2..
    that is all..
    thanks for your time..


    AnaK KeciL


    That is AnaK KeciL's Life 12:44:00 AM



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